‘Tis the Season

After spending the entire month of December reading (and singing) the phrase, “‘Tis the season,” and writing down my goals for the new year, I  began to ponder the topic of seasons. New year, new season. Is that how that goes? And why do we sing the lyrics “tis the season to be jolly” only during Christmastime?

As these questions swirled around in my head, I  started to reflect on the season of life I am currently enduring right now. The new year, new season thought seemed hardly applicable for my own life. I  was entering 2018 in the same dry, frustrating season that I  had been for three or so years. Instead of a new year with new surprises, I  felt like my life was continuing to move along with many questions still unanswered and future plans still up in the air. Struggling to fully embrace this period of my life, I  remember praying, “Lord, when is this season going to end? And why is it lasting so long?”

During this time of reflection, I  went straight to the source (the Word) to seek answers and encouragement. I  came upon the book of Ecclesiastes, one of my favorite books of the Bible. I  was reminded that God is above all things and is making each season beautiful in HIS time and not OUR time. In Ecclesiastes 3:1, 11 it says:

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

He has made everything beautiful in his time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end.

How easy is it for us to forget that our lives are uniquely under God’s watch and not our own? If I  am going to be honest, I have been inpatient and frustrated at times with God, asking Him why I  have not seen the fruits of my labor after many years of hard work. But the Lord promises that the work he is doing in my life (and your’s) is beautiful, even when it may not feel or look so beautiful..And He WILL bring each work to completion.

When I  think of the topic of seasons, I can’t help but picture the image of God as the Potter and us as the clay:

But now, O Lord, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You our potter; and all we are the work of Your hand.” (Isaiah 64:8) 

In order for God to to fulfill His good purpose in us as the Potter, we must adopt an attitude of submission to the Lord’s work in EVERY season. As the clay, God is shaping and stretching us into the people He wants us to be during these times. We must fully allow Him to continue molding us into His masterpiece, even throughout that extremely barren season that we might not quite know the purpose of. 

Since we know He is making all things beautiful, we can be joyful in all seasons, not just the fruitful ones where we are receiving His blessings or feel close to Him. Part of being joyful in all seasons, is embracing the one that you are going through. You may be going through a particularly barren one right now, while your friend is going through an especially fruitful one. But as individual and unique masterpieces, God’s timeline will be different for each one of us. Finding truth in this, will allow us to walk forward through the various seasons with contentment and peace, instead of fear, impatience, and jealousy.


As I continue into the year 2018, I strive to look forward in anticipation to the way that God will continue molding me during this season of life. Despite the unknowns and hardships of this particular period, I  am continually choosing to embrace it knowing God is making everything beautiful in His time. So even through the storms, I  can’t help but say “‘tis the season.

Will you join me as you live out God’s purpose for your life?




Wait, Hope, and Remain Expectant

Is it just me or does your day-to-day routine feel like a lot of waiting? Waiting for your number to be called at the DMV, waiting on-hold for someone to pick up the phone, waiting for the signal to change, waiting for your food to come out. Whenever I think of waiting, I  think of sitting or standing in one place, motionless while time passes by.  

Recently, I  have been thinking about the topic of waiting, but in the Biblical sense. What does it mean to wait upon the Lord? When I  started studying it, I  noticed the stark contrast between day-to-day waiting and Biblical waiting: 

Biblical waiting is not sitting in one place and passively waiting for the Lord to move. It is moving forward, in our purpose, with hope and expectancy, clinging to His promises until the wait is over. 

In of my favorite Psalms, Psalm 27, David encourages us to do just that: 

Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

King David certainly had his fair share of hardships, as he speaks of enemies rising up against him in the earlier verses of the passage. He encourages his readers not to stand still as one endures hardships, but instead stand up against the oppressors and push forward in faith. For example, when David slew Goliath, he waited on the Lord and went out to battle. His strength came from his deep faith that God would provide for him, despite seemingly impossible circumstances. Imagine if he would have passively waited. I  am not sure he would have seen another day. 

What is something you’re waiting on the Lord for? Perhaps it’s a dream to start your own business, a desire to have a family, or a yearning to mend a broken relationship with a sibling. For me, it is the dream of gaining an acceptance into medical school and eventually becoming a practicing physician.  As Christians, the word waiting can be replaced with the word expectancy.  We are expectant: expectant for the Lord to deliver us from the pain that we are enduring; expectant for God to move in mysterious ways; expectant for Him to show up and show up big in our lives; expectant for God to grant us the desires of our hearts as we earnestly follow Him.

And as we remain expectant, we are promised to gain new strength to continue this season of waiting. One of my favorite passages states just that:

Even youths shall faint and be weary,
    and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
    they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
    they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40: 30-31 (ESV)

In other translations of the Bible, the word hope is used instead of wait. So we wait, hope, and remain expectant. Most importantly, we move forward with purpose and pursuit.

For as Christians, we are called to live radical lives and be good stewards of the talents and strengths God has given us. So let’s not waste the time during seasons of waiting on the Lord. Instead of sitting and watching the days pass by, let’s cultivate them into days of growth, rejuvenation, and illumination of Christ’s infinite power and glory in our lives. And finally, let us not grow weary, but run with perseverance. So will you join me in doing so in this new year?




A Beautiful Journey


Growing up, I had one vision and one vision only and that was to become a doctor. Throughout high school and college, I worked towards this goal, enrolling in the pre-requisites for medical school, working in research, volunteering at a non-profit community health center, and studying for the MCAT.  I had a set timeline in my head: graduate college by 21, enter medical school the following year, start residency by 26 and begin working by 30. Now I sit here, at 27-years-old, as a clinical research assistant, still waiting to start medical school.

It’s funny how God has a way of humbling us. He takes our plans and shows us that as much as we like to try and schedule out our own futures, He is ultimately the one who has control.

Just recently, I started to appreciate God’s hand in my journey to medical school. Although longer and windier than others, I can finally say that I wouldn’t have it any other way. Why? Because it is a journey that has been specifically designed by God just for ME. I simply need to sit back and continue submitting to His will for my life. As I do so, my heart is open for God to reveal to me how He is working through specific landmarks on the way, to mold me into the best version of myself for Him and His glory.

A couple days ago, while thanking God for these landmarks, I wrote my reflections into a poem-like piece. I put it below:

My beautiful journey;

A broken, long-winded journey.

Of moments filled with tears and challenges.

Moments filled with fear, doubt, and insecurity.

But also:

Moments of growth.

Moments of renewal, peace, and molding.

Moments where God was so CLEARLY shaping me into the woman He has made me to be.

I am proud.

I am proud of this journey.

It is far from the cookie-cutter journey.

But somehow knowing this path was ordained by God, just for ME and for His glory brings me HOPE and excitement for the future.

Excitement for what’s to come.

Most of all, excitement for how God will use me,

To love others through medicine

As the best version of myself;

A version that could only be produced by THIS journey

This beautiful journey.

Friends, I wanted to encourage you all with this testimony. Those of you who are feeling  defeated by a journey that has turned out different than you had expected or hoped, be encouraged. Be encouraged by the truth that the Lord your God has designed everything along this path, even the SMALLEST details. He is doing a great work in you, wherever He has placed you. If it’s not where you had planned, then know that this story is EVEN GREATER than one you could ever write for yourself. Believe that it is beautiful. Be proud of your journey and enjoy seeing God mold you into the woman or man that He has created you to be.



Bearing One Another’s Burdens

I will never forget one day in college, as I was walking home, I ran into a friend who was walking in the same direction.

“How are you doing” I asked as I came up beside her.

“Not good at all,” she answered.

She then went on to open up with me and talk about the ways she had been struggling. Her openness and vulnerability stopped me straight in my tracks.  I thought to myself, when was the last time I actually answered honestly when asked that question? And in my desire to get home after a long day of classes, I found myself feeling uneasy and impatient. Why wasn’t I mentally prepared to come alongside her as a sister in Christ and listen for however long she needed me to? She was depending on me to be a listening ear, and I was scarcely present.

Ever since that day, I have reconsidered the question “how are you doing” in Christian community. I have begun to process the importance as Christians to be present and willing to listen to those who are struggling. In this, we are able to bear each other’s burdens. In Galatians, the Apostle Paul expresses the importance of this idea as he states:

Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

As we carry another’s burdens, we are pursuing a life of obedience to The Lord’s commandment of loving one another. This idea is clearly expressed in John 13:34-35:

 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

In our pursuit of loving one another as followers of Christ, we are reminded of Christ Himself, who was the prime example of love as He selflessly carried all of our burdens and our shame on the cross to grant us eternal life.

In many phases of life, this task of coming alongside another and taking on the weight of a brother or sister in Christ may seem like a daunting one. Often times, we struggle to stay afloat with our own personal struggles, let alone the struggles of another. In other instances, we may feel inadequate or too broken to be a help to others. But friends, it is commanded to us as Christians to be selflessly present for another regardless our circumstances and feelings at the time (and let’s be honest, is there ever actually a good time among our busy lives?).

God will honor you for your faith and obedience to love one another. We see this in the Bible with the story of the paralyzed man in Mark 2:1-5. We are told that the paralyzed man is brought on a mat by four men to the home where Jesus is, in faith that Jesus can heal their friend. In order to see Jesus, they go out of their way to make a hole in the roof so that the paralyzed man may reach Him among the crowds. In seeing the faith of these friends, Jesus forgives the paralyzed man of his sins.

Think about how much effort these four men had to go through for their friend. They are faithful in literally carrying him to Jesus.

So I challenge you today. Is there someone in your life that God has called you to come alongside? I encourage you to ask God to open your heart and your eyes to see who needs YOU and your physical and emotional PRESENCE this week. He promises to grant you the patience, time and energy to love them as Christ loves the Church. So, let’s embrace each other’s brokenness and come together as Christians to create a community of openness and vulnerability as we bear one another’s burdens.



Choose Joy. Each Day.

As I celebrated my 26th birthday this last month, I started looking back at my 25th year of life. I thought about the defining moments that I had experienced over the year: from graduating with my Master’s Degree, to moving back home, to watching my mother fight (and beat!) cancer, to receiving rejections from medical schools, to lost job opportunities. If I am going to be completely honest, it seemed as if the number of challenging moments far outweighed the happy moments. But within these challenges, I have taken home one main theme: the importance of intentionally choosing joy.

For the longest time, I believed that because I was a Christian and filled with the Holy Spirit, that this happiness and peace of mind would naturally find me during challenging times. But, as I struggled with days of anxiety and depression, I was soon reminded how important it was to take action and seek out this joy attained and so freely granted to us through Christ when we abide in HIM. 

Now, some days I find it takes more energy to seek out joy than other days. Is it just me, or do you feel like it’s so easy to let the most trivial things steal your joy? Whether it be sleeping through your alarm, spilling your coffee on your shirt on the way to work..But,  we have the choice to decide whether or not we will allow these worldly events to strip us of the joy we have in Christ as we go about our daily lives.

So I started brainstorming; What are some of the ways we may combat these “joy stealers” and experience this overwhelming sense of peace and contentment through a life filled with disappointments and discouragement? Here are some ideas I have come up with:

  • We may encounter joy by celebrating others and sharing with them in their joy.

One technique I adopted from a dear friend in college was the habit of writing one encouraging letter each week. I find that when I shift my mind from myself to others, I am able to climb out of the pit of self-pity that only leads me to a continual state of discontentment and unhappiness. This can be in the form of a simple text, a quick call on the phone, or a handwritten letter.

  • We may encounter joy by coming to the Lord in prayer.

I have found that when I start my morning in prayer and ask God to open my eyes to the joys I will encounter throughout the day, my mind is set on things above. This communication with God allows me to see His presence within the chaos of the a long work day.

  • We may encounter joy by adopting an attitude of thankfulness.

On days when I feel down, I like to write down all the things I am thankful for or brainstorm the ways in which I saw God work through me that day. Both lists allow me to recenter my thoughts and adopt an attitude of thankfulness for the many things that the Lord has provided me.

  • We may encounter joy by living out our vocational callings.

I don’t know about you, but whenever I am working in the field that the Lord has called me to, I feel a deep sense of joy and contentment. As a future health professional, when I am caring for patients at the local nonprofit clinic or serving in Armenia on my family’s medical mission trip, the hardships and burdens of life seem to feel weightless. There is something about the refreshed spirit that follows when we are following God’s lead in our lives.

Now we aren’t promised as Christians to a life without hardships and trials. We will continually encounter situations and people that will attempt to steal our joy. But, we are promised fullness of joy when we abide in Christ and remain obedient to Him. Jesus reminds us of this promise in John 15: 7-11 (NASB):

If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. My Father is glorified by this, that you bear much fruit, and so prove to be My disciples. Just as the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you; abide in My love.  If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love; just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.  These things I have spoken to you so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full.

David also was aware that an intimate relationship with His Creator and a life of obedience lead to a fullness of joy as he expresses in Psalm 16:11:

In your presence is fullness of joy, in your right hand there are pleasures forever.

So will you join me in this endeavor as we choose to seek joy each and every morning among the disappointments of life? As long as we remain in communion with Him and walk along the path He has for us, then we are guaranteed to be filled with new mercies each day.  

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
    his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23



“Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.”

1 Chronicles 16:10

A Mighty Work in You

Do you ever fall into the mindset that rejections from the world or feelings of inadequacy have bearing on God’s desire and potential to use us for His glory?

If so, you are not alone. I have battled with these thoughts for years as I seek to further God’s kingdom through my vocation. To be honest, I still at times have to overcome the false belief that God uses worldly success to predict His success in us.

But..here’s the reality:

First, God does not see us as the sum of our accomplishments. Second, these “failures” or “inadequacies” don’t have any impact on the way He sees us, nor the ways He will use us.

Why? Because God promises us that He has already prepared and lead the way for us to live out His mission. Ephesians 2:10 says exactly that:

“For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do”

In fact, He often works through us more profoundly in times when we feel inadequate. While our “inadequacies” may feel like stumbling blocks, God uses these exact “inadequacies” as fuel for growth. We become players of something bigger than ourselves.

Take the example of Moses, when God asks him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. He is sorely aware of the reality that he is not a leader, nor does he have the gift of eloquent speech.

But Moses protested to God, “Who am I to appear before Pharaoh? Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:11)

Moses is filled with self-doubt. I imagine he felt in this moment, the same way I often feel. After rejection upon rejection, I am aware of my inadequacies and doubt creeps in. I find myself asking God, “how will you work through me?”

The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” (Exodus 4:11-12, NIV)

God promises Moses that He will equip him with everything he needs and we see just that, as God brings Aaron alongside Moses to help him accomplish His mission of guiding the Israelites out of Egypt.

This summer, when I was studying for the MCAT for the 3rd time, there were days I  felt overwhelmed, inadequate, discouraged and unsure how I could possibly live out God’s calling for me as a healthcare professional. I constantly questioned God as why He had given me this passion for medicine, when I was struggling to do well on this 7-hour-long exam.

But God reminded of this promise: He will never call us to things that we cannot achieve through His help. I read this verse and immediately posted it on my computer as a reminder.IMG_0498

Friends, the Lord will fulfill His purpose for me and for you despite feelings of inadequacy and rejections from the world.

The only thing God asks from us is our obedience and faith. He does not ask us to come to Him with a list of accomplishments and successes.

Therefore, let’s come to Him today with a willing spirit, arms wide open, and walk in His ways in faith and anticipation of the MIGHTY work He is doing through us.



The Destruction of Comparison

Growing up as an identical twin, comparison came as an easy way for one to distinguish the differences between my sister and I. “Which one is smarter? Who is more athletic?” they’d ask. “You’re face is slightly rounder” they’d say confidently to one as they stood to examine the minute differences between us. It became difficult for me to stand on my own and examine the unique person that God made me to be without those comparisons circling around in my head. And to be honest, some days, it still is.

I don’t know about you but I can start playing the comparison game and become so quickly wrapped in it’s evils without noticing. Nowadays, social media can so easily capture us and leer us into a world where we start comparing ourselves to the perfect lives presented by others. From proposal videos to dream job announcements, the comparisons begin and seem to never end if you don’t stop them dead in their tracks. Over the past couple months, I have discovered why it is so important to face these thoughts head on:

  1. Comparison distorts our trust in God’s divine navigation.
  • When we compare our lives to others, we forget the unique journey that God has sent us on. It causes us to lose sight of the truth that He has individually designed our paths and is navigating us to the ways which we should go (Psalm 32: 8). It often prevents us from celebrating the special blessings that He has given us individually.

2. Comparison steals all joy .

  • When we compare ourselves to others, we lose our sense of identity as those who have been fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Our minds become filled with thoughts of inadequacy and self-pity that often times keep us from fulfilling our God-given potential. Our gifts and talents from God may be put to waste when we live lives under the shadow of comparison and we cannot find joy in our own unique advancements for the Kingdom.

3. Comparison prompts jealously.

  • When we compare, jealousy starts creeping into our relationships, even into the ones we consider most sacred. Jealousy so easily prevents us from celebrating others and their achievements. But the Bible warns us clearly of the dangers of an envious heart, as it is described as something thatrots the bones”(Proverbs 14:30). In James 3:16 it says,

For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.”

  • Jealousy not only breaks us down, but removes the peace that dwells inside of us as Christians. This peace that surpasses understanding is the backbone of our Christian walk. Therefore, when we are filled with jealousy, our lives may seem to spiral out of control.

So, enough talking about the destruction that comparison can do. How can we avoid falling into the trap of comparison?

  1. Remind yourself daily about these truths from Scripture
  • Psalm 139: 14: You have been fearfully and wonderfully made. There is no one like you and there will never be a better version of you.
  • Psalm 139: 16: God planned your steps before you were even born. Your journey has been uniquely designed by the Lord. God is good, and therefore the journey He has for your life is good.

2. Start each day with a grateful heart.

  • When we are gracious to God for His blessings, big or small, our heart will naturally overflow with true joy.

3. Stay aware of your thoughts.

  • If you find yourself beginning to compare, immediately stop the thought dead in its tracks.
  • At least for me, once my mind starts, it can go on and on for hours until I find myself feeling broken and discouraged. I end up having wasted an hour, where it could have been spent using my own talents to bring glory to God.

So friends, please don’t let comparison steal your joy today. I have a feeling when we begin to fight against the temptation to compare, our hearts will be filled with pure contentment, as we stand in awe of the unique work that God is doing individually in us and through us each day.

xoxo, Michelle

Defying the Odds

As a current graduate school applicant, I am constantly inundated with numbers and statistics as I wait to hear back from various schools. If I do not consciously stop myself, my mind will drift into a world in which I am calculating the chances of being accepted into a certain program. “I have a decent chance of being offered an interview here with my test scores and GPA” or “there is no way I will be accepted into this school,” I’ll say to myself as I compare my statistics to the average student. I somehow believe that rendering my statistical chances of being accepted will make me feel more at ease. But, time and time again, I find myself feeling increasingly overwhelmed and anxious. More importantly, I find myself moving farther and farther from faith in God’s power and His and perfect plan for my life.

I find it so easy to fall into a mindset and eventual belief that God cannot alter overwhelming odds. But for the past couple months, God has been constantly reminding me that His ways do not run on worldly calculations and statistics.

This last year, my grandfather, previously healthy, suddenly came down with an acute renal infection that left him in kidney failure. Within a month, his health was deteriorating and he had to be put on dialysis. His physicians believed that he would have to be on dialysis for the rest of his life, as it is a commonly known that renal function cannot be regained once it has been lost. At this point, my grandpa had dozens of people praying for complete healing and he remained full of faith that God would heal him if that was His plan. Sure enough, God had more in store for him. In 4 months, my grandfather’s kidney function was partially restored and he was able to wean completely off of dialysis. The doctors could not believe their eyes, as they had never seen anything like this in all of their years of practice.

God had defied the impossible and overruled probabilities in the scientific literature.

And somehow, when this happened, I was surprised, as if I hadn’t read about God already work in this way multiple times in the Bible. The Word of God is filled with stories of the Lord defying worldly odds:

  • David and Goliath (1 Samuel 17): David is able to slay Goliath, a giant, with a simple rock and sling.
  • Sarah and Abraham (Genesis 17): Barren at 90 years of age, Sarah becomes pregnant.
  • Disciples and the 5,000 (John 6:1-16): The disciples are amazed when Jesus feeds 5,000 people with 5 loaves and 2 fish (and has leftovers)!
  • Gideon and his Army of 300 (Judges 7): Gideon’s army of 300 men is victorious over 135,000 Midianites.

These are just a couple of the many examples seen in the Bible, the majority of which I heard over and over as a child in church. So why is it so hard to believe that the same God, Omnipotent and Omnipresent, is working in our lives in mysterious ways? In Isaiah 55:8-9, God reminds us of the truth that our worldly minds cannot grasp the odds-defying ways of our Lord:

For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

The one similarity among these individuals from my grandfather to Gideon, is that they all had insurmountable faith that God could do remarkable things beyond all explanation. I have a theory: the bigger one’s faith, the bigger one’s prayer. So, how big are the prayers you are praying?  Are they filled with insurmountable faith that God can work miracles in your life and defy the impossible? Speak your requests with that belief that He is able to do “immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us” (Ephesians 3:20).

So friends, when you find yourself weary and worn down by statistics, or forgetful of the capacity of God’s work in your life, look back and remind yourself of the ways in which He has previously demonstrated His power in your life or in the lives of those around you. And finally, go in peace, filled with the truth that we are in the hands of a God that works miracles and allows us with faith, to defy all odds.

xoxo, Michelle

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28


Hope within the Waiting

Is there something in your life that you having been waiting to be fulfilled? Is there a trial that you have been struggling with for quite some time? Do you feel hopeless in the waiting, as if God has been silent and unresponsive to your biggest hopes, dreams or requests?

Where is God in this?

If you feel this way, know that you are not alone. There is hope within the waiting.

The other day I was at a inter-generational women’s Bible study and as we read Matthew 9:18-22, I couldn’t help but find deep encouragement within the story of the hemorrhaging woman.  What had been a miracle that I often glossed over, became an immense inspiration as I struggled with the same questions above.

Although little is known about the woman, the Bible tells us that this woman had been bleeding for 12 years. Think about that…12 years of unanswered prayers. I sat and said to myself, “I cannot imagine waiting 12 years for God to move this mountain in my life. I would be filled with hopelessness.

But as we read on in the passage, we see that it is but the opposite for this woman:

“20 Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. 21 She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.” 22 Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment.” (Matthew 9:20-22 NIV)

Two things about this woman struck me:

  1. Her unshakable faith.

Although it does not say, we can assume that there were crowds of people following  Jesus as he worked miracles. This woman’s faith stood out to Jesus among the dozens of people hovering around him–so much so, that she knew that if she merely touched Jesus, she would be healed. Her hope in God and His plan for her life had not run dry after 12 years. She was not bitter nor did she doubt God’s faithfulness at this moment, despite years and years of misery. I hope and pray that I may remain rooted and grounded in faith during long periods of waiting, just like this woman.

  1. God was growing her faith.

Through the 12 years of hemorrhaging, I can imagine God was using this period to grow her faith into an unshakeable one. It reminds me of James 1:2-4 (NIV):

“2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

God was using this trial in her life to develop perseverance so that she could be used as a vessel to bring Him glory as He continued to work in her and through her. I would assume that the many men and women around Jesus saw this miracle and their hearts were changed in drastic ways.

So friends, don’t feel discouraged as you glare at the mountain ahead of you. For many, it may feel like you’ve been climbing it for years, yet you’re still stuck at the bottom of the slope. Find hope in the truth that God is using this time to strengthen your faith, just as He was in this woman’s life. The best part? He sees you, just as He picked out this woman from a crowd of people. God promises never to leave you. Not only has He gone before you, but He is walking alongside you in this journey.